Lifeline:Water Wars

This heat
Reminds me of long ago days
Playing with the hose
Creating water falls
Water Wars
Fights of never-ending bullets
refreshing the outside and inside of our beings
Laughter as we taunted each other and stripped off our clothes
They only got in the way of our skin
that needed to be replenished with droplets of life
Squirting mom as she got in the way
Her taking the hose, viciously, lovingly joining in
Chasing us down the front lawn
Until we were all drenched
Waiting for the heat to dry us off
So we could start all over again...

Lifeline: Wishing

Wishing at this moment that today was another day. A day 2 years ago or maybe more. Today is a day that feels like the air is tightening as if I am drowning. Everything inside hurts and I pretend I can separate my life into compartments. Inside I feel the bottomless well of sadness and I can't seem to find the footing to climb out of myself. A voice inside of me sounds familiar and reassuring telling me I can have this day and have it not be okay. I can have one day when inside I feel like I am burning like everything I am is disappearing. I can have a day when I am trapped in a cycle of self-hatred and an upset stomach at that thought that today is not another day but rather a continuous day rooted in other days that I WISH had never been.

But this is just today and I hold onto hope that tomorrow I won't feel like my mind is going to explode or feel like hiding from everyone and everything even when I am with everyone and I am in everything.
SO i hold onto HOPE
Having
One
Peace
Everlasting