Lifeline:Creativity

Creativity

I see shapes and ideas when I listen to music. Like literally music brings about these dimensions in my brain that I am astounded by. I can at times also see colors springing from the notes being played and the vibrations bring about memories or feelings that at times I cannot convey.

I write it all down. I tune into the creativity of those around me and absorb life.

You see, each person through their creativity brings a whole new perspective to whatever the situation may be or may not be. I look and I admire their intelligence and their confidence to share their creativity to share the talents that the Lord has gifted them with and bring hope to others. Not all performers are believers but I know this still applies to them. I see God's imprint in the ways He has blessed them; they are marked by the greatest artist who created each one unique and part of a whole universe.

Creativity in all its different forms energizes me and leads me to a more hopeful state of mind. I love to encourage creativity the way to solve problems maybe in not the most logical of ways, although that also has its advantages, mainly because I am not a logical thinker myself.

Everything in this world pulses with life everything ready to inspire even when life is bleak there is as Tupac once wrote a rose that can bloom from concrete.

I am excited to explore this creative world to live in it as I am called to it and pursue beauty the way that God shows it to me and reveal it to others as He reveals it to me.

Lifeline: A letter to myself/A letter to you

Dear me, (you)

Could it be, that just yesterday you were a baby

waiting to be held
waiting to be coddled
waiting for a bottle

But,  held only for a moment and not enough to last a lifetime

Could it be, that just yesterday you learned to crawl

you learned to stand
you learned to walk
you learned to run

But, only to run when no one can see you

Could it be, that just yesterday you learned you have a voice

you have words to speak
you have words to write
you have words to pass on into history

But, only words that you write and speak anonymously

Could it be, that just yesterday you learned to love

that you are loved unconditionally
that you can forgive those you love
that love is the answer to everything

But, that not everyone knows what love means and that will always break your heart

Could it be, that just yesterday you learned that you have opportunities others don't

you can vote
you can work without concern
you can pray everywhere you go

But, you will always have to work harder than some and not as much others depending on the circumstance

Could it be that just yesterday you learned to have faith

a faith not based on emotions that are fleeting but that is sustained on truth that cannot be defeated
a faith that empowers the intellect but is also guided by compassion the heart and mind together fashioned
a faith that has shaped you and broken you time and time again to make you new when it seemed to be the end

Was it just yesterday when you realized that you will never be perfect like your heavenly father is perfect and that you cannot save anyone but you can help people along

Because this person that you are right now, reading this aloud
that is who God created you to be
to witness and be strong when others think you are wrong
But most importantly to love above all

Lifeline: Valentines

No work, no real commitments leaves time to wonder and think and thus write.

Valentines is coming up this Sunday. I love all holidays, that have been around for a while not as much a fan of all these days Facebook keeps announcing; friend day? Thanks but no thanks for the added pressure society.

In any case, I have always loved Valentines. Although, at times it has been a source of heartache, I have come to recognize that it can be whatever I want it to be. Its meaning is all dependent on me. Not a perspective I take with everything.

So, Valentines this year is just going to be even more amazing because it falls on a Sunday and it plays so well into how I am being perused at this very moment of my life...

Jesus is pursuing me so purposefully these days that I can't help but feel His love. His way of pursuing me is showing me more of the way I need to desire to be pursued by men. It is gentle, meaningful, and not hidden. He invites me to go deeper in relationship with Him and to know Him more intimately. So much so, that even other desires that I have for certain relationships pale in comparison.

So, it is absolutely perfect that on Sunday I am going to be teaching His word, knowing Him more, praising Him in mass, and adoring Him. Having Him perusing me this way is helping me to overcome so many insecurities. His pursuit has started to change and crack those parts of my heart that have not known how to let His love in all the way to the depths where I can let go and love myself and see myself as He does.

This love I am learning and feeling from Him is helping me to love those around me differently, less selfishly. It helps me to honestly desire the good for the person that I love even if it means I am not part of that person's life or at least not a part of it in a way that I desire because the desire of seeing them be the best they can be and the desire that God has for them has to be greater than mine. Different, it is so different from when I was in a relationship a couple of years ago and I thought I understood how to love. I now realize back then I had not fully grasped how to love as He calls me to love.

This Valentines I will celebrate it as the Holy Spirit leads,simply sharing love with everyone around me near and far.

Happy Valentines from my heart to yours.