I finished my first year as Facilitator of Religious Education!
Right after the reception of the Sacraments on Saturday I got in my car; didn't look back and drove 4 hours and 40 minutes to Hemet California. There were no stops at all once I was in the car. I had only one goal: get home and see my family, get hugs, and laugh. Trust me I knew there would be much laughter. I was right.
The drive was just amazing. I listened to several awesome cd's from Lighthouse Media on atheism and living without fear and felt pumped. I took time to talk to the Lord about how much I needed this time to find clarity to be with my home base support.
It had been a few rough 2 weeks at work and in my head. I had been feeling just alone with my thoughts and I knew I needed to be somewhere where I didn't have to explain myself. I could just tell my family and friends that I was not feeling well and they would know what that meant. Sometimes the whole move and adjusting and waiting to build friendships is not the easiest for me. But I am still sure that this is where I need to be, so I am trying to take it in stride as the Lord helps me to find a home base support here in Arizona.
So I got home and to my surprise my uncle and cousin from Tijuana were also at the family reunion. Oh so Saturday my nephews received their First Communion but it was also our annual family reunion. It was great fun: dancing and laughing and joking and drinking. Then we went out to dance. I forget how much I love to dance but with my family I am reminded right away. We had a blast and discovered that Redlands young adults have a bit of a drug problem on the dance floor. Won't go into details but lets just say there were deals going down.
It was a wonderful time with my nieces and nephews. My niece would come and ask me to sit and watch tv with her; the baby would chase me and I would chase him. All of them were just loving on me and I on them. It is the simple things that make me happy, time with family and friends is invaluable.
Then I made my way to Redlands and spent time with my friends. It was great to se them and not just be hearing them. I am so blessed. They listen but tell me how it is and I need that. I need truth and I need to just feel heard, understood and accepted; WE ALL DO. This week in California was the best drive I have taken this month.
Driving back I was just grateful. Grateful that I have TWO places to call home and encouraged to continue to build community here. Arizona you and I have a long way to go.
SOMETIMES WE NEED TO STOP OVERTHINKING AND JUST DO...THAT'S THE LESSON I AM TAKING AFTER THIS DRIVE.
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