Lifeline: A wreck of dreams

While I try to avoid writing in what seems like a dear diary moment, I just can't stop myself right now. Please be aware that this blog are my wandering thoughts.

So...DREAMS...

I keep having these great dreams. They are beautiful and make me so happy, but then reality sets in when I wake up and nothing has happened, nothing at all like in my dreams.  These dreams are an ongoing occurrence.

So in my dreams there is a constant guest appearance made by someone who is in my personal opinion...Awesome! This person has been around in these dreams for years and years. 

You see it would be different if the dreams were just normal dreams. But NO, they have to be these realistic dreams that ANNOY me upon waking up. I often ask God why?

Why must I dream of a person who protects me, accepts me, looks at me with such tenderness and hugs me with such care, ONLY TO wake up and have it all be gone. 

Subconsciously I think I know what all of this means and yet I AVOID IT like a plague because in my reality there is no open door to this dream. 

Sigh... and smile because at least the dream exists...